Here I am. Called myself: 'already move on'.
No. I won't mention love today. My heart is still frozen.
I busied myself with writing, reading, and laughing. Unfortunately, I don't like television. But watching some movies make me feel better.
Chatting with many friends made me not feel alone. And I tried to make peace with myself. But, far ... far away in my heart. there's a denial, I hit it hard, so it didn't come to the surface.
I am still sad, still hurting. still self-pity.
But I am just human.
“But who can remember pain, once it’s over? All that remains of it is a shadow, not in the mind even, in the flesh. Pain marks you, but too deep to see. Out of sight, out of mind.”
― Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid's Tale